Tuesday

These are the gates that seperate me and my wonderful son, oh what joy it will be to be able to know that he will never have to be behind these gates every again. To pass thru them that one and final time knowing he never has to look back, he will have a family and life fulfilled with love and happiness this day can not come to soon for me.

Today we had a wonderful visit he ate of course and loved every minute he makes such cute faces and expressions when he eats and rocks his little head in a dancing motion it is so cute.  He is really a big fan of Dad,  he is always doing stuff to make him laugh and to make me laugh I am sure the workers thinks he is crazy but who cares if it gives Duncan joy that is all we care about. When we first got there they had him in a playpen I guess they can't chase him around like we do but when  he saw Allen he came running to him as fast as he could he recognizes us and that makes me feel pretty darn good, even if it is only to say hey there are those crazy people that feed me cookies and baby food.  We played and he unpacked the bag which he loves to do, we kinda kept him a little more occupied today in one area which was good because it is so hot.  By the end we were walking around the orphanage following him which was OK he is so cute you can see him cut his eyes to the side to make sure we are behind him....he knows what he is doing! lol When it was time to go we took him inside with his groupa to get ready to eat lunch and nap he turned to me and put his little arms up as if to say don't leave take me with you. It breaks my heart to leave him but I hugged him bye and could hear him crying when I left. How could something like this make you feel good and bad at the same time.  It makes me feel so bad to have to leave him, but on the other hand it makes me feel good that he is getting attached and can feel the love I have for him.  Please pray we find out a court date soon, we are just taking this one day at a time.