Finally Something !!!

Finally when I went to the mail box I received a copy of our approval letter from DSS . I now know I am at least closer to receiving my approval from USCIS and oh what a day that will be. The neighbors will really think I am having a crazy fit because I am going to scream and dance in the middle of the road like a crazy person!! LOL I am so ready to go and get my little boy.  My daughter got teary eyed talking about us leaving I know it is going to be so hard on all of us to be apart but I am trusting my family to help keep them occupied and happy.  We are all just going to have to focus on the end of this wonderful journey at that is bringing Duncan home where he belongs.

Waiting

This is really getting depressing, I know I shouldn't be expecting anything yet since they messed all the paperwork up, but I just can't help but hold my breath every time I check the mail. I just keep praying I will get it this week hoping they realize how much time has been wasted since they had to send it back and put a rush on it. The past week has been horrible 1st I get poison oak on both arms and it is still there itching like crazy 2nd I find holes in my dining room wall guess what? TERMITES !!!!!! Lastly the alternator goes out on our van so I really think the devil is testing me. But it is OK because I am going to take one day at a time and all this can be fixed within time. 

Waiting

Still no paper, I got a call today from my agency saying that the girl they hand delivered my home study to was out sick for a week and that my paper was being sent over night to Charleston and they should get it tomorrow. My question is WHEN WILL I GET IT?????  This is getting on my nerves it seems to be little things that are happening to prolong me from getting this one paper. Last night I was really down wondering if things were going to work out,  this waiting is giving me to much time to think and my thinking is becoming more negative than positive. I just need to focus on one thing and that is Duncan with his little precious face and blue eyes I just can't wait to meet him and for him to meet his new family. It is amazing how much I love him already, I have got to stay positive and focus on getting him and holding him in my arms.

Don't know whether to SCREAM OR CRY !!!

All this time I have been watching my mailbox for my last form.....oh what a joke! The agency that did my home study emailed me today with information that made no sense to me at all, so I call her and she said oh  did you not call asking about where to get your fingerprints? I said no I have been to my fingerprints appt. already.  Now this is the second time she has sent me an email that didn't belong to me and at the beginning she gave me a new last name, go figure! About a month ago I was to pay extra for my home study to be hand delivered to Columbia to hurry the process along, well she tells me today that they sent it back once it got to Charleston because something on the last page was not worded correctly.  You can imagine how I had to breath calmly before I blew my top.  It ends up she said it would be hand delivered today or tomorrow she stated that this happens a lot in adoption...now is this true or was this suppose to make me feel better? I let her know I was very upset and that I wanted to bring my baby home asap and that is why I wanted my papers hand delivered to begin with. And I don't think it would have took this long for them to get it back from Charleston and they are just now fixing it and going to send it today or tomorrow!!! WHERE HAS IT BEEN ALL THIS TIME????? Oh Lord please forgive me I know I need patience but this is getting hard!   Please pray that this does not take to long! I also thought to myself why did somebody not call me or email me to let me know what was going on.

I am still patiently waiting for my INS clearance to come in the mail.  This waiting is so hard and reading other blogs has really got me down.  I am praying for Julia and Aaron I didn't realize he had already been transfered to an institution.  We just have to pray very hard for these little souls that God is watching over them until we can bring them home where they belong.  It really hurts to know that we are all here ready to bring them home where they will be loved and properly cared for and the crazy government over there is keeping this from happening.  They act as if they don't care about them so why do they make it so hard for us,  the people that do care.

KISSES IN THE WIND (The Waiting Child's Lullabye)




I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.

You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.



I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.

But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.



Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...

Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.



May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.

I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.



Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.

But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.



May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.

And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.



--- © Pamela Durkota, written for Josh

Still just waiting on our clearance from INS, I keep double checking my paperwork found I have three more forms. One copy of something I already had and a new POA nothing that is a big deal...Thank Goodness!
Our womanless Fashion show went great everyone had a good time, all the guys had a blast once they were all dressed up. It was wonderful how everyone came together for a wonderful cause to get my Duncan home. People I didn't even know were just walking up to me giving $100.00 bills and some people I did know. I think I cried the whole time even when I was laughing at all the guys. We still have more money to raise but I have faith we will get there one way or another.